I got drunk on New Year's Eve
And didn't see the ball drop
I passed out on Mackenzie's couch
It was 2015 when I woke up
Three days later while watching Tusk
I jotted down my resolution
It turned out as a suicide note
By 24, I'd be gone
Every punk rocker's got a song or two
About how they wished they had died young
Here's my confession, I'm no exception
Just listen to one of my songs
It's not that I feel invalidated
Or insignificant
I just acknowledge that the universe
Is a monumental piece of shit
Silver lining, silver lining
Stab in the back
You’ll find no remorse
In a heart that's painted black
Silver lining, silver lining
Spit in the face
A quarter century gone
She knew it's time to walk away
Cultured Coffee on a Monday night
Great friends and poetry
I came home and my dad was gone
My mother in misery
I knew just then when I looked in her eyes
That she couldn't take any more pain
All those plans that I devised
Went to hell straight through the drain
Some people have Jesus Christ
So they can sleep at night
Some people have a psychiatrist
And anxiety medication
Some people have a pack of Marlboros
To fight the stress and the shakes
We've all got a battle to call our own
And you can make no mistake
That I'll be here for you
Cause I know you're here for me too
So long as we've got each other
You know we'll make it through
I still think about suicide
Three hundred times a day
But my hope will never die
That it might just fade away
Here's my promise that I
Will never leave you behind
I know I've said it before,
But I truly mean it this time
It's a crooked, broken, fucked up place
Just take a look outside
I've stared the devil in his face
Now I can say that I
Am happy to be alive
Secret Shame’s breakthrough debut gets a series of reworks, plus an acoustic take on “Dark” from vocalist Lena Machina. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 11, 2020